lost......

I'm lost.....

There is no way that i have to go

There is nobody want to lend their shoulder to me

i feel lonely...depress

but

remember.....!!!!!!!

"Inallah Ha Ma ana"

"Allah  Always  be with you" 

Peace be upon and hi everyone.... 

Yes..sometimes i feel lost...something incomplete..empty......i don't know why sometimes....i overthinking that someday...everything that i have now will leave me ..and how strong enough that i can take it...the things that i really realize is all the things i have is just the gift that Allah lend to me... someday, He will take it back...

life is live..its can rewind or that something that can we skip the chapter that we hate..

For me, my parents are everything...they are amazing...i love them because of Allah...I will give up everything for them... Now ,my father is suffering diabetes and heart disease (but not the serious one)..my mother is suffering kidney failure since i was 5 years old..i really respect my mother ..she is strong....

 they always give the best for me...

 i have intention to bring my parents to perform Umrah....However it is, i'm not affordable to do it....maybe someday..

These are my conservation with my mum

 ibu ... if u have opportunity ..where you want to go?

since she suffered kidney failure , she  think that there is no way she can travel abroad ..she also close all the desire to see the other side of world...she never said that..but  i can see the from her face...

she don't want to reply me at first..because it just a dream for her...

then she said,

adik ...i'm just like other people..i want to perform Umrah..Haj..but there is no way ...

then i replied,

Don't worry ibu...If Allah had wrote your name to be His guest ..Allah will.and isn't impossible..

the end of conversation

get back my topic...yess..healthy body also gift from Allah..yet, Allah take it from my parent..but my parents do not give up.. because they know it only gift from Allah...and there is Allah by their side..

so ,i have to use wisely what has been given to me...InshaAllah..

اللهم صل على سيدنا محمد وعلى آله وصحبه وسلم